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My Gramma passed away last week. She was 95, had all her teeth and no hearing aide. I will miss her greatly.

Friday 3-14, after a marathon writing session, I finally turned in well after the sun came up. Grampa, who has been gone for 9 years, visited me and we journeyed through memories and familiar haunts, until we came upon Gramma at lunch in the senior center. A flirty senior flirted and told her to sit on his lap. She poured juice on him and left the room. Grampa laughed jolly and shook his head, then watched some more with a fond expression. That dream faded and a new one emerged, they sat side by side, leaning together.

That's when my brother woke me and told me she had passed away a few hours earlier. He and another borther came to get me. I didn't have time to shower, so I grabbed a change of clothes and we took off for Mom's. My eldest brother came, sister flew up from LA. A couple cousins were there helping, to whom we shall be forever greatful.

Over the week, my siblings came together for Mom with such selfless love, I am humbled to be their brother. Family friends, some I haven't seen in a while, poured into her house to offer support and help with final details. Again I am humbled. It was about Gramma, yet everyone came together for Mom.

I often came here to just let myself go, wandering through inspirations. Also decided to post an item or two that sat on my desktop, and wrote a collection of memories I was to deliver at the memorial sevice. I polished it and delivered a shorter, less wandering version.

Everyone was worried I might relate how Gramma and I often locked horns, but said none of that. Instead I tried to make it as uplifting and wonderful fun as Gramma was. The slide show backed me up.

Afterward the extended family and friends gathered at Mom's. We shared more stories and laughed until 1:00 a.m. Though I was so exhausted I had to lie down, I could not sleep. Reflections of Gramma and Grampa swam around in my head, producing a sense of ease, complete peace with the world. All my frustrations, irritations, pet peeves, resentment and anger are gone. And though I will forever miss them, I know they live on in us, for I see them in each. 

An hour ago a friend asked how I''m doing. For the first time in life, I''m fine.


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jedi master bader
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Born to create. Love ladies, life and dogs. Enjoy simple pleasures: good food, the good Earth; friends and family.

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JWA2277 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Very happy birthday!
cskadoz 2 days ago   General Artist
t'ank you so much!
JWA2277 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Quite welcome... and though I am silent I am an admirer of your work!
cskadoz 2 days ago   General Artist
t'anks, bro. I enjoy yours too. That Fireworm is way cool, and I enjoy the Singularity Fall series. Keep creating!
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shehrozeameen 5 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
happy birthday. :) Stay happy and stay strong.
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